Sleep

Once you become a mother, sleep becomes a fond memory.  Something that you used to enjoy, but can no longer seem to find.  And the more time you put in as a mom, the more distant that memory becomes.  You begin to lose sight of it during pregnancy.  Having to get up all night to pee or rolling over to find that watermelon under your shirt is stopping you from getting comfortable.  Then once the baby is here, you're up all night for feedings and diaper changes.  Once he's able to sleep through the night, you have a glimmer of hope that you'll also be able to sleep all night.  But no!  You find yourself up all night checking on him to make sure he's still breathing or that the blankets are still on him.  Or, if you're like me, you are awakened every night by him climbing into your bed with you.  Then it's on to a night filled with feet in your back and hands in your face.

I'm still fairly new to motherhood, so sleep is still something that I remember and miss.  I miss going to bed, closing my eyes, and not waking until the sun was shining in through the window.  It's become a lovely daydream that I often think of in between cleaning up spills and yelling "Don't touch that!”  I know that it's going to be a long time (if ever) before I truly find it again.  But, until then, I will keep dreaming of what it was like and how wonderful it will be!